Saturday, April 7
Saturday, January 27
In memory of Ania M.
We were all very distressed to hear about her death.
She was joyful, energetic and charmingly scatterbrained.
It's just not fair that she had to leave this world at the age of 21.
There's nothing left to say in such a moment...
Ann - we won't forget [*]
Friday, January 12
To be different...
From childhood's hour I have not been as others were;
I have not seen as others saw;
I could not bring my passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken my sorrow;
I could not awaken my heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Edgar Allan Poe
Wednesday, January 10
Erotica
Once you put your hand in the flame
You can never be the same
There's a certain satisfaction
In a little bit of pain
I can see you understand
I can tell that you're the same
If you're afraid, well rise above
I only hurt the ones I love
Madonna
Thursday, January 4
Quotations
‘I didn't like to think about passion, it wasn’t a part of my nature, or so I thought. How little we know – I mean really know – about our capabilities.’
‘It’s difficult to remember quite how and when intrest in another human being flares into something more commited, more passionate.’
‘Of course I searched for her. It’s only when you’ve lost someone, you realize the nonsense of that phrase “it’s a small world”. It isn’t. It’s a vast, devouring world, especially if you’re alone.’
‘If one has given oneself utterly, watching the beloved sleep can be a vile experience. Perhaps some of you have known that paralysis, staring down at features closed to your enquiry, locked away from you where you can never, ever go, into the other’s mind. As I say, for us who have given ourselves, that is a horror. One knows, in those moments, that one does not exist, except in relation to that face, that personality. Therefore, when that face is closed down, that personality is lost in its own unknowable world, one feels completely without purpose. A planet without a sun, revolving in darkness.’
Wednesday, December 6
LiberaIism
Don't you think so?
But still...
First and the most significant one is the change in me - I began to derive real, I mean REAL pleasure from being with someone I love. I finally appreciated security, support, caresses, endearments and... the feeling of uniqueness that a 5-year relationship brings. I can say that I am trully happy at last.
M.- thank you for the part of me you bring out.
Secondly, I would like to leave here a message to someone - Ann, thank you for being such a great person, thank you for letting sunbeams into my life, thank you for your friendship. It means a lot to me.
The storm is over.
So why do I still feel so excited, so restless, so rough????
Maybe you are right that that's just the way I am... always dangerously alert, always waiting for something, always on standby.
My curiosity is never satisfied, my appetite is never sated, my ambitions are never fulfilled...
Is it wrong?
Thursday, November 2
Better days :)
Wednesday, October 4
The Passion
“How is it that one day life is orderly and you are content, a little cynical perhaps but on the whole just so, and then without warning you find the solid floor is a trapdoor and you are now in another place whose geography is uncertain and whose customs are strange?
Travellers at least have a choice. Those who set sail know that things will not be the same as at home. Explorers are prepared. But for us, who travel along the blood vessels, who come to the cities of the interior by chance, there is no preparation. We who were fluent find life is a foreign language.
Somewhere between the swamp and the mountains. Somewhere between fear and sex. Somewhere between God and the Devil passion is and the way there is sudden and the way back is worse.(...)
The heart is so easily mocked, believing that the sun can rise twice or that roses bloom because we want them to(...)
It was a game of chance I entered into and my heart was the wager. Such games can only be played once.(...)
I longed for feeling though I could not told you that. Words like passion and extasy, we learn them but they stay flat on the page. Sometimes we try and turn them over, find out what’s on the other side, and everyone has a story to tell of a woman or a brothel or an opium night or a war. We fear it. We fear passion and laugh at too much love and those who love too much. And still we long to feel.”
Saturday, September 30
Back to reality
Here I am back to reality... For the beginning I got to know that my best friend who was supposed to go to London came back to his drug addiction. He started to take hard drugs once again after almost a year of abstinence. He's no more the person I loved so much. He's like a shadow of the man that he used to be. I hate situations that you can do nothing about. I hate being helpless. I hate to see how he's slowly killing himself. In my previous post I wrote that my heart is breaking cause he's taking a part of it with him, I've changed my mind - my heart is slowly vanishing, probably because a part of it is dying together with M.
Helplessness - the worst feeling of all.
Tuesday, September 12
He's leaving...
Wednesday, September 6
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